Running away

I go through these phases of running away from myself. Sometimes I feel so in tune and comfortable being with “me”, and sometimes my mind/ego/emotions run wild, and I’ll do everything I can NOT to be still with myself. Sometimes when I feel the heaviness of the world, I tend to shut down a little… and I’ll distract myself with mindless doings, like scrolling on my phone, or watching a movie… or keeping myself way too busy. Basically, anything that will keep my mind away from the present moment. It was a busy week with going to the CMA awards, and surprise birthday parties, and having my beautiful mother in town. All of the excitement, partying and late nights had me worn out, and so last night I knew I had to catch up to myself. I took a candle lit, epsom salt bath to relax and sooth my muscles, and went to bed at 9:00pm. I had the best sleep I’ve had in a long time, and woke up at 6:00am. I meditated and did some yoga for a full hour, and now I feel so connected, grounded and peaceful. It’s funny because I know what I need to do to feel present and calm (meditation, nature, hot bath, enough sleep .etc) , but sometimes I put it off, and take the long way around to getting there. We’re funny, complicated characters.. us human beings. I’m going to make a serious effort to make more time for self care. Because what’s more important than having a peaceful, centered, loving state of mind?!? I think what I’ve learned this last year more than anything else… is to just be easy on myself. Perfection doesn’t exist, and we’re all doing the best we can with the information we have at the time. So, I’m going to try to run towards myself more often, and in the times when I’m not strong enough, I will give myself a damn hug anyway… because I am enough in all my forms… and so are YOU! I love you guys! xoxoxo

Be truly you,

MLO

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